Job hunting is a huge emotional rollercoaster for me, something I wouldn’t wish on anyone else. I know that it is meant to be depressing and hard work but my problem with it is quite specific. I always like to know exactly what the next month or year of my life has in store. Not in too much detail but I want to know the general shape of things to come.
Having a bit too much of an imagination means that with every job I apply for I imagine myself in the role and get quite excited. Even when it’s not a job I particularly want I still imagine it as being my future. So then when the inevitable rejection letter comes it feels like someone has ruined my plans and shaken up my entire future. I always have too much hope which means the blow puts me in a bad mood, even if it’s a job I didn’t particularly want, and sometimes those are the worst, you think ‘if I can’t get something I don’t want, how will I ever get something I do want’. And there you are at the beginning of the cycle again applying for four or five jobs a day before you wait for another flow of rejections.
It isn’t a very pleasant way to be living and I really hope this transitory period is nearly over, plus it would be really nice to spend a tenner without having to think long and hard about whether I can afford it.
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I feel your pain. I spent 3 months seriously searching for work. People kept saying to me to ‘enjoy the time’ because when i did get a job I would miss it. But it’s not an enjoyable time and even if you are really positive, the rejection and time invested into it is almost like a full time job anyway. I went to over 20 interviews in there. In 3 months, that is almost one month worth of days going to interviews, let alone all the applications, criteria essays, resume tweeking, phone interviews, group interviews, the works. It’s anything but enjoyable. I was also like you at first, planned my life around jobs that I didn’t get.
Good Luck, one thing I hope helps is to know that there are so many people out there. I didn’t realise that until I read other blogs and went to group interviews filled with people looking and in worst situations than myself, needing the money a lot more than I did and been searching a lot longer. U are very much not in it alone and it is a stage that a lot of us have to go through.
you speak wise words, the irony is that there are so many people in it which also makes the whole thing harder!
I just found out today that where I’ve been applying to everything (I was going to do a Masters there) they have renamed the master and it now costs a lot more and so I have to change the city I was moving to. Annoying how much time has been wasted now!… I’ll probably get a job offer there tomorrow :p
Totally understand. Job hunting stinks.
I wish you the best of luck!!
it’s the worst job ever!
it’s good to have support though
Indeed! And the pay is TERRIBLE! lol